To Crunchy pop dudie

I really wanted to keep the friendship but I hope you know that I am more torned and hurt than angry. I hope someday you'd realize how much I really tried beyond my usual strength to understand what you're going through to give justice to all painful words, comments and gestures that you've given me. In the end, I've reached my last straw that walking out of it to keep the residual respect I have for this friendship was what I thought is the only way. You know what I've been through in the past. How people have hurt me time and again and how much it took me to recover from it. Please don't condemn me for doing this.

There's so much fond memories that we shared, the moments you have been there for me alongside the beautiful stuff you did that I would not want to go to waste. I hope that there's a better way that we can resort to but I guess its partly my fault that I allowed you to hurt me to be left really wounded and not even think of keeping what we have. Know that I have forgiven you before you could even be apologetic. Know that there's so much I would've wanted to share. Please know that I wish I can be that salvation to heal you of the hurt and angst you have in your heart. But please also understand that I am only a person with limitations who can only take so much sacrifices even for someone she so cares about.

If you could only understand...
I don't mean to feel this way....
I hang on that tight rope in my chest..
..refusing to say what I feel inside
Words seen so simple but with you
...everything is complex
I am out of my league to even write it
...I don't want to process..I don't want to think
I am in awe of you..
Argh! even saying that hurts..
Why do I flail? Why do I even bother sprucing up?
This should'nt be..this can't
Every minute spent with you, a lost chance...
"better off this way" you say...
"better off this way" I think...
My heart sinks just thinking
...I can't concentrate
..I love you but I cant and I should'nt
I don't like this coz its crazy..it's insane.
I am insane for saying..

Singing my Sagada song...(Pretty in Sagada)

Lushing in this green..

A Labyrinth unseen

Sifting through my eye

I'll live beneath this sky

I can go down the great beyond

..steal surprises in hidden domes


I'll always know in my heart
I can be a lil pretty... Yes in this sweet new place ...I am pretty in Sagada

We ride on, We ride through
The fog that capped our moments through

In this valley yet unknown....Strange new sun in this green new home....

I am lurking in your embrace...
breezy weather in a lovely place

Yes for you I'll ride it through...

Pretty me...Pretty you..

In this silence...

We'll remain

Humming up beneath the rain

Listening closely as you say.....

...Darling, you're pretty in Sagada

In little walks and great big climbs

Let me put those worries behind

Sagada's song reaps through my mind

within valleys and plains between the skies..

Let this stream wash off my pain..

Sagada lives as I remain...

In your memories...I am pretty

Oh yes...pretty in Sagada