Monday, February 07, 2005


Cruising along Bora sunset Posted by Hello

Another bora weekend

Spent another weekend at Bora..a spontaneous trip but with all the unexpected luxury. My aunt from the states was kind enough to treat me to a grand pre-holiday bathe. It was cool. Got a tan, new turquoise bikini and a glimmer tattoo in my neck. Was feverish with my colds but the beach healed me. I loved bora with the fresh unfamiliarity it brings. The beauty of anticipation keeps me alive as I look forward to staring closely at the sunset and being one with the million grains of white sand. The beach indeed is one of the few characters in nature that loves me. It does'nt mind if I walk along with little pieces of clothing nor does it scare me when I almost step at a starfish. It never ceases to amaze me by just being a paradise a plane ride away. It guarantees me that no matter what, it will always be there waiting for me for another trip.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Matthew

My countdown to a new career continues more like the countdown to rapture than doomsday. I got some job offers but I have my eyes on a particular company I was interviewed for and I can't help but realize how my behavior towards finding a workplace mirrors my attitude towards finding the right guy. I don't intend to pull off a Carrie Bradshaw by writing this (to those of you who are raising their eyebrows at this point) but so much of how I don't feel magic towards a mediocre offer is like how I am when I'm with a boring guy pulling his guts out just to please me. I would smile with my eyes twitching, say thank you and get home only to crave for mc donalds. Later on, I would feel depressed, look-out in the window and wish upon a star knowing that somewhere out there would be the perfect career (or guy?) for me. One that I feel so fulfilled just by giving out my best. A company that motivates me and recognizes my potential beyond bounds and provides me with benefits that would make me stay. A company that would bring out my character through my best and worst and manages to bring me to places I'd love to go. I felt love at first sight the moment I was interviewed by this company which I would like to call Matthew (for confidential reasons). When he called me for a date (of the interview) the following day, I immediately said yes without bothering to refer to my leather diary for possible tasks the following day. The moment our eyes met, I can't help but feel home with his masculine building seated at a very dignified and elite location in Makati. His is a working culture I've dreamt of as a a little girl dreaming of her prince charming but my version of prince charming would be that dressed in glass windows, 20 stories high whose name stands proudly amongst the many big names in the global market. Matthew has 60% of the market share in his industry and could sustain compensation packages of 3,500 employees spelled out in car and housing plans not to mention an engagement ring worth 18 month pays. I'd love to continue on the many reasons why I fell inlove with Matthew but at this point, there's no commitment yet. I have'nt received any calls since our date yesterday. I am left with no word yet than a possibility of a lifetime with him and sleepless nights praying and hoping to hear the words I've been wanting to hear from him the moment I entered the world of the working class..the words: "You're hired".