“Nothing to heal” ( a song)

and it goes a lil' something like this...

Sometimes I feel like I am sloshed from within.
I begin to say things I don’t mean
cry in between
fight the unseen
I analyze things from behind the wheel
Wanted to know so much who’s fakin’ and who’s real
who among them is out for a kill
was I selfish to not know how it feels

But I am vulnerable in my nerves
Numb in my heart
Listless from the start

How do you say what you need say
But never think anyway the things that may?
Why is it so hard to begin from the start
When there’s nothing left to feel..nothing to heal

Never regretting what I said
Never missing what was dead
Nothing to look back
Don’t figure, don’t crack
For when you thought you got hurt
When you thought that was dirt,
Life is gracious in all ends
Let go, let it bend

But I am calm and that’s fine
Just claimed what was mine
Now tell me how I..

need say what I need say
But never think anyway the things that may?
Why is it so hard to begin from the start
When there’s nothing left to feel..nothing to heal